Book//mark – Rien ne va plus | Margarita Karapanou, 1991

Rien ne va plus, 1991 / Margarita Karapanou

“I freed myself in order to be alone. For me freedom means solitude, a solitude full of walks in the country, solitary strolls through unfamiliar cities, books scattered around my bed at night, lying open at random pages.”

“Paradoxically, I’m the only woman who never really lied to you. I simply distorted reality in order to bring it closer to the truth. But you didn’t understand anything. Anything. And I hate you for that.”

“The game starts again from the beginning. The end is always another beginning. The nightmare of eternity in time, this is our fate.”

“Don’t be scared, he said. Don’t be scared. I would never hurt you. It’s not just that I love you. You’ve become me, you became me, and how could I ever hurt myself?”

“—Every time I want to write, I want to write love stories. But as soon as I pick up the pen I’m overcome by horror.

—What does that have to do with us getting married?

—I don’t know. But it does. My true nature comes out in my writing. I’ve only matured in my writing. In real life, I’m at sea.”

“You still eat away at me, more and more, insatiably. I’m stupid, I let you do it. But you’re stupid, too. You don’t realize that by eating me you’re poisoning yourself.”

“my chest is aching more than it ever has before, my head and heart have been emptied and something has broken inside me and i know that sounds dramatic but it’s not.”

“I would have preferred if you had loved me less and understood me more.”

“The end has arrived.
But not even that can release me
Because there is no End.”

Magarita Karapanou, Rien ne va plus, 1991

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Book//mark – Kassandra and the Wolf | Margarita Karapanou (1976)